its been a longlong time since i post something here my dear dead blog...well,at least no one will know what im gonna post...i jus wana pour out my feelings to you, my dear blog...

well..a relationship tht last for soo long is really hard to maintain...well,im nt saying tht im giving up..cause i really love you..my dear girl...if i really wana let go, i would hav let you go earlier alr..i hav already give in to you soo much..isn't it enough?i jus dun want you to go out wif those scouts guys if possible..is it soo difficult??you should hav know why i dun trust scout guys so much..i asked you to make a choice of who is much important and you say both is equally important..after a 2year plus relationship, you can say both is equal..after soo much i have scarifice for you to make you happy,done for you..and all you can say is equal?do you know my heart scatter into pieces wen i heard tht..thinking tht all of i hav done is pointless alr..i didn't ask for much..i didn't object you to go for scout alr..jus nt soo often..all i ask for is i jus dunwan you to go out wif those guys..you tell mi tht the more i force you, the more you will bee rebellious..what do you treat mi as??ur mom?ur sister?ur brother?soo am i a boyfriend to you ant?if you really love mi, you would say tis to mi??i was out late in the past..and you called and ask mi to go home..i did!!wen im at a outing wif my friend, you ask mi to fetch you home from scout camp..i did..wen i do things tht you doesn't lik,you ask mi to change..you didn't lik mi to go out wif my friends and i did...and i did all tis cause i love you!and why cant you do tis little simple things to make mi happy?!and you can say to mi you didn't control mi at all?you really wan mi to change to the past ren hao?i reallyreally dun know what to do..im really tired alr...you said you are tired..i am too!!jus one more fuck-up things and thts it..seriously..